Another big affection together.Sometimes I suffer for the times which I could be more of a social.Being unsocial.Such a great burden for a weak guy.You gotta repay for the others who is social.It needs a great strongness to get over.I m strong yet,I was,until today.I was thinking I was strong.I could get this life half alone,I would think.But today,I ve been shown some specialities to being a social.But being a social guy... How further to that I am.I suffer for this.What happened to me today?I was really affected by all those.They ve attacked too strong on me.They wasnt weak as I was thinking.Actually I never thought they are weak.They are just not at my level-corresponding to my state in people.I should be on a high level to stay alive.But they arent weak.They werent weak.Or I wasnt using my defenses,or I wasnt strong as I was thinking.I think I should use the technique of "divide of the powers" which I could be good at.I cant really fight those half alone.GOd should help me.I will never suicide,I could do everything for live.But everything goes too hard on me.Even as I write these,I have a problem in my engine nörons.Which blocks me to refled my emotions to the paper.
*Yazının üst tarafından bir ok işaretiyle şöyle birşey yazılmış.After time of collapse,social collapse.Bu tahminen foto çekim günü tarihine ait bir zaman.Hatta eminim öyle olduğuna.
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