İ m not going to suicide if none loves me or even cares for me,i didnt born for it. I cant expect for it either,nein! I just have to look for my life,but i cannot really understand the inner ways of those people who thinks instead of me. There is no guarantee for anything,even for that in system built by the people,i can also have these fates even i do make their decisions. They are just relieving themselves,then?